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THE ARRANGEMENT.

 It was the way he looked at me that made me forget my sanity. He was older than me and that turned me on. The fact that he could teach me stuff ,  and I could learn a few things from him made me want him even more. I wasnt into young boys who cared about slim bodies with no stretch marks or shaggy boobs with no cellulite. He made sure I was comfortable and licked every bit of my body until I begged him to stop. I wasnt interested in young boys who thought sex was mandatory because it made you feel good. I was into older guys who thought of sex as a way to connect passionately. The thought of him made me feel so grown and matured. The way he respected me and spoke to be made me feel like a woman. I knew I had changed but nothing was compared to this teenage love affair. He would take me out on dates , where he didnt ask me to pay. He would insist on it and that made me think he got us. Today was a different day he had asked me to meet him at a hotel. We had three months seeing each oth

SINFUL WAYS.

He placed his hand under my dress.. on my thighs now between my legs, motioning for me to open my legs a little bit more..  I did. I felt my panties shift to the side. His finger felt long, he started moving in around. It felt so good , I felt so good.. My breathing started changing looking at him , staring at him across the table.. where his friend was sitting next to me.. if he knew what his friend was doing to me now.. . I shut my eyes for a moment as he got up to go to the restroom. Are you okay his friend asked.. why did you stop I asked looking around just to make sure no one in the room was staring at us. Let's go to my place after this, he whispered  No I cant I mumbled. It's not safe, he will find out. An hour later I found myself with them at his friend's place.  Wanna smoke? My boyfriend asked, yes il try it. A few moments later , my head was spinning but my body relaxed. Every bit of my body was calm. Come closer my boyfriend said   He started kissing me his fri

PS , MY LOVE.

I'm happy everytime I see your face, the look in your eye has never changed from the first time I saw you. Your welcoming smile has kept me in your arms till this day. I think I'm dreaming with each day I spend with you.  Your laughter and your jokes fills me with so much joy. Your touch and kisses always gets me in the mood to make love to you. The way you do me with each moan and orgasm you control my body in a way that I could never understand. I see a future bright with you. Having little people who look like you and I , how happy would that make me My Love. You have been there when I needed you and to this day you haven't left my side. I'm the luckiest woman alive to be loved the way you love me. I know we still have a long way to go but my loyalty will remain with you. My heart will remain with you and il wake up everyday just to please you with my body. With every cell in my body you attract il always make time for us My Love. They'll come a time when we both

STOLEN HEART.

 I see it in your eyes , when you talk about her that you're not happy. You deserve someone who listens when you talk , who watches you when you're asleep. You deserve someone who is willing to tolerate your moods. It's true what they say we love those who dont care about us. I see it in your eyes  , when you look at her that you're just staring at a blank space but with me you look into my soul. I know you dont hold the same conversations you hold with me. She is not intelligent like me or kinky like me. She cant hold it down the way I hold it down with you. Dont you think you deserve it all? I made a mistake by not letting you know this but maybe it's for the best that I didnt. Your smile lights up the room but when shes around I never see it.  Even if we never fall in love,  just know I'm here for you. When you want to talk , when you have a hole in your heart il fill it. When you're mind is preoccupied il release it. When you're lost in the clouds il

LOVE UNDERMINED.

 In the mist of it all , after all that had happened.. memories remain.  The way it unraveled still haunts me today. Trying to keep it together but everything is falling apart. You used to have my heart , I gave you my body.. you equipped my mind but still wasn't enough for you.  I wonder how it felt when you held her and called her yours.. knowing very well I am your only fantasy. I wonder how it made you feel when you looked at her and still kissed her passionately with the very same mouth you used to go down on me. Was it all worth it? Was losing the only person that cared for you worth being with someone who only cared about your money?was losing your sanity worth losing your future? We made plans together.. we were so good together but you let someone take that all away.  You made someone undermine our love , like a broken mirror it can never be the same. We can never be the same. Your kisses means nothing to me now.. your touch is cold on my body. Whenever you're on top o

UNANSWERED QUESTIONS.

Bright moon.. the wind blew right on my face.. it was one of those days where you could stay out because of the breeze. My mind was on him.. he had asked me to meet him at his place.  The distance to his place wasnt long but the shadows of the trees as I walked startled me.. with each step I took I looked back just to check if no one was following me. Reaching the end of the corner of his place, there he was.. standing. My breathing started increasing.. I was in love with him.. He stood there in his dark Jean's and a tight shirt that showed his arms. His hands in his pockets staring at me with each step I took.. shyly I looked down as I got closer to him.. Nice weather right? I asked with rather a sweet tune which I didnt expect would come out.. Yeah , and you made it thanks. I grinned we stepped inside the room. Take a sit anywhere you'd like he said.  I sat at the end of the bed next to the mirror.  I had memories in his room , of so many times we had made love.. we had sat d

AN UNEXPECTED EVENT.

Walking down the street with my head down. He called me out from his car , with a face that looked like he wouldn't hurt a fly. I looked up with anticipation. He smiled and said " You want a lift"? I mumbled "No thanks" come on where you going? He asked' Nowhere you're going I shouted  Can i park here and walk with you to where you're going then he asked. Convinced he was crazy i laughed hysterically. Whatever you want I shouted. He turned off the ignition and stepped out of the car. I stood there shocked , what was he doing.  Are you seriously gonna walk with me? I asked in a concerned tune this time. I like you and I wanna get to know you and if you wont get in my car il walk with you he said.  He asked me everything about myself and my numbers. I couldn't go without giving him after what just happened. He was a nice guy, he was more than nice. I realized how handsome he was his voice so clear and well spoken.. his eyes dazzling with mystery. T

BLUE SUN.

 It all makes sense to me now. The feeling was mutual when we both held each other.  It didn't seem like it would change then. Even in a crowded place , all that I saw was you.  You know the pain of having to say you dont love someone because that's the only thing that makes you feel safe? This feeling I did not know. I was a foreigner in my own heart , both my mind and body were just as dumb.  I never thought I'd sit here and tell this as a poem but it all makes sense to me now. When we were young we thought it was true, or atleast it felt that way . I had no business convincing myself otherwise because it would destroy me.  Memories of us now feel like they never existed. It was when you looked at me when were together and how you would try not to stare at me when we were with friends. So all these years I still remain with these feelings.  I hate myself for this, could couldn't these feelings fade like how you ignored me when I needed you? Couldn't I just wake up