BLUE SUN.

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 It all makes sense to me now. The feeling was mutual when we both held each other.

 It didn't seem like it would change then. Even in a crowded place , all that I saw was you. 

You know the pain of having to say you dont love someone because that's the only thing that makes you feel safe?

This feeling I did not know. I was a foreigner in my own heart , both my mind and body were just as dumb. 

I never thought I'd sit here and tell this as a poem but it all makes sense to me now. When we were young we thought it was true, or atleast it felt that way

. I had no business convincing myself otherwise because it would destroy me. 

Memories of us now feel like they never existed. It was when you looked at me when were together and how you would try not to stare at me when we were with friends. So all these years I still remain with these feelings. 

I hate myself for this, could couldn't these feelings fade like how you ignored me when I needed you?

Couldn't I just wake up oneday to nothing but a blue sun? 

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