MY INNOCENCE.

 There I was sitting on my bed in the middle of the night. Thinking about what you were up to. Smilling from ear to ear alone , reminding myself of the afternoon we both had. You had told me you loved me and wanted to be with me.

It was us holding hands , looking each other in the eyes at the back of the school where no one noticed, and you had told me not to tell anyone because public relationships end quickly. I believed him , I mean what did I know about relationships?

And here I was reminiscing about that afternoon,  we kissed and he kissed my neck too. I just have one question for you why did you steal a banana at the schools kitchen? The whole time kissing I could feel it in your pockets.. I thought I'd ask you again tomorrow morning.

I went to bed just after my banana thoughts. It was just me and my dad living together. Let's get a real quick cap of how I looked like.. I was short , chubby and had a cute face but I was a nerd. I wore glasses that made me look like a professor.

Talk later I yelled at my dad , right after breakfast. The bus was there , I took the bus to school everyday. I wondered what Sam was doing. He used his car to come to school. Sam was a hottie let's not forget popular. All the girls wanted him but here I was dating him. 

I wonder if he at least told his friends yet , another thought came to me, what if his embarrassed of talking to me and people knowing his dating me. Beep that was my phone it was a message from Grace , my Best friend I had texted her and told her everything ,we said we'd talk at school. 

You slut! She grinned looking at me as if I knew the cure to every single disease in the world. Start talking! She looked at me. Grace was totally different from me she was skinny and athletic and very pretty too. We had been friends for the longest time ever. She was the only person who ever saw me without my hair bun out and my glasses off , she had said I looked very beautiful.

The last year of senior meant that there was going to be a home coming dance soon. Out with the details she hissed. Okay shut up would you! I said frantically. Well we did kiss yesterday but he wants to keep us a secret. She looked at me funny. And you agreed to this ? Why would you ? He probably just wants to smash. She said. 

The classes were long as usual , lunch was short. In a few hours the last bell of class rang. And yes I saw Sam a hundred times at school and not even once did he glance at me. Beep that was my phone,  let's meet at our spot". Who is it? Grace asked it's him he wants to meet up. 

He was there already when I got there. Hands in his pockets. His fine dark hair blowing side to side. He was hot. Why didn't you even glance at me at the Cafe ? I saw you there and I think you saw me too. I'm sorry, I will do better. He looked so cute.. He looked at me and kissed me. His lips felt so soft his breath so fresh.. 

His arms on my butt squeezing them nicely. I felt weak now. Stop,  I pushed him away. Why do you keep stealing bananas from the kitchen. I looked at his pants touched them to take out the banana. What happened next must be the most embarrassing thing of my virgin life. It wasn't a banana it was his boner! 

I know right , he laughed at me. Come on I'l give you a ride today. The parking was empty it was only his car and Grace waiting for me. Is that your friend? He pointed to Grace. Yes , can she come with us? Yes she can, he said. 

The trip was mostly quite. I wondered if I'd find my dad right on the driveway , fixing his old car and what he would say. My dad worked from home most of the time. He owned a warehouse store in town and was a mechanic at home. He had people working at the store so he spent most of his time home. 

We dropped off Grace first. Then me. I remembered my Dad wasn't going to be home till 6pm he went to pick out new materials for his old car in town. Are you okay , Sam asked. Yes I'm okay I said smilling. Should I invite him inside for a tour of the house , I thought. 

Do you wanna come inside? He looked at me with a smile. Yes. He got out to open the door for me. A few moments later we were inside. Do you want a soda? No I want you.. He kissed my neck then to my shirt he unzipped my blouse. I couldn't catch my breath. 

What was I doing , so many things were running deep in my mind now. I had been seeing this guy for two days now and here I was about to give him my virginity. Does it always happen when you kiss a girl? I stared at him my hand on his boner. No, only with you he continued kissing me. Stop! I pushed him away. I'm sorry am I moving too fast?

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To be continued